layaway LOVE*

End of one journey; Begining of another<3

Babe! here i am again writing about you aha damn. well i just finished my web design final so i decided to write you something<3; today is our LAST day of high school … ever; it went be so fast but these past 4 years have been the best & you made them even better. 4 years ago from today you were my best friend and 4 years later; you my best friend and so much more. without you there would have been no way that i could have survived high school, you dont know how much you honestly mean to me and how much i honestly appreciate you and everything you have done for me. by sticking by me through everything, the good and the bad. we walked home together almost everyday; met you at your locker after school<3 was at your house everyday … having girl talks with your mom & making arts n crafts with jared aha. you n morgan racing to put your headphones in so you dont have to here me blab all the way home; yup i love you too babe (: … through all the fights & arguments i wouldnt take one minute of it back i wish i could do it all again with you. i love you so much & today when that bell rings at 1O:3O is when life really starts nothing is planned for us anymore and everything is based on our own decisions, yeah im scared shitless who wouldnt be but i know that everything will be okay because i have the best person i can with me. i love you so much, inifinity and beyond & i cant wait to spend my life with you. timothy james hostutler; your amazing and im so lucky to have you. thank you for everything … you truely are amazing & im going to love you forever; im NEVER going to leave you, so dont worry<3 te amo baby & congratulations for comepleting high school ; we did it babe! me & you<3 (:

never letting go…. <|3

i dont know what happened or what went wrong. it really upsets me that nothing is what it used to be, i still LOVE you with all my heart &_ your still the only one &_ will always be the only one that knows everything about me &_ that i trust 1OO percent. i miss you so much, i really do. i wish i could tell you this straight out but i dont think you care to hear it. you mean everything to me &_ still do. i miss all the nights we used to chill, me you & morgan or just me & you<3. you were always the one to make me laugh & there wasnt a day that your name wasnt in my inbox on my phone, but now i havent got a true laugh in a while & my inbox is empty without you<|3. this really bothers me a lot that this isnt everything it used to be. i miss getting random texts from you & talking to you all night texting, i miss having you to talk to about every little thing no matter what it is. i miss talking on the phone with you<3 & everything else. i love you so much & this hurts me so much, its always on my mind but i try not to show it. it gets me mad to because i feel like you dont even care, i stopped texting you because i felt like you didnt want to talk because you never text me anymore or even try to talk to me. in school you stare, so i wave but still its awkward. i remember all the mornings i used to meet you at your locker & walk home with you everyday<3 i miss you more then anything, even though you probably dont believe this at all. you were &_ still are my best friend for three years & i want to have the best friendship we had before<3 but i cant be the only one working on it. when i said i cant live without you i ment it, i dont know about you, it doesnt seem like you care. i want to know exactly how you feel &_ not just agree with me. somehow, someway let me know please, the only thing im asking for is my best friend back<3 ):

only the begining<3*….

baybee baybee baybee, so we just qot home from celebatinq our second anniversay ! &nd i qta say toniqht was quite amazinq<3 . i had an awsome time with youh aht dinner in boston aht maggiano’s that was pretty fun &nd the food was REALLY qood even tho youh didnt like mine =P . then after we took a walk over to the public gardens &nd took some pictures &nd just talked. im so qlad youh liked your card by the way ! =D &nd i cant wait to qet mine tomorrow ! <3 . then later we came back to my favorite place to beee, in bed with youh ! we had ourselves some fun &nd cuddled or youh like to say ” snuggled ” uhp (: . now im layinq here typinq this cus youh fell asleep on me ! haha your so cute . youh scared yourself & jumped then youh rolled back over &nd fell riqht back asleep; snorinq like a baybee haha aww ! youh look so adorible riqht now ! i love youh so much i wish there was a way to explain to youh how much but there isnt so for now youh just have to believe the fact that i love youh with all my heart; youh &nd only youh ! youh truely are amazinq baybee boy nd never fail to leave me breathless; alriqht well riqht now ima qo downstairs with your brother cus youh left me all alone ! haha ilysfm; your my world !<33333

one chance. two people. three words.

June9th2OO9; or as we know iht as 6O8O9<3

That was the day ive been waitinq for; for i cant even remember how lonq. youh never fail to knock me off my feet &nd that day youh truely did. i truely do believe that your my only reason to be livinq my life. me feelinqs for youh &nd the feelinqs youh qive me are indescribable<3. youh are soo amazinq; i wish youh knew. everytime my heart beats iht makes more room for me to love youh [ if thats even possible ] . ill never break your heart &nd that i promise youh. truth be told; your the only that makes me truely happy &nd the only one i need in my life. yeah; sometimes youh make me want to kill myself &nd i know im not the most easiest person to put uhp with either but i love you so much more &nd nothinq will ever change that. i think your the most amazinq person ever &nd i envy youh. your sense of humor is awsome &nd your face is what i find truely adorible. i feel so comfortable around youh; your the only person i do. i want to be with youh for the rest of my life &nd after . i cant picture my life without youh. if i were to die today; that would be perfectly okkay because now your all mine &nd thats the only thinq i ever worked for in my life. iht would be okkay for me to die because i qot to spend the most amazinq times with youh; like when we just lay in your bed for hours on end &nd “cuddle” [ ew; hate that word ] &nd talk for hours on end; or puttinq your life in danger when we ride in my car; &nd when we sit there &nd watch the secret life &nd just lay in your arms; &nd when we qo to the beach at niqht; youh just qive me this feelinq inside i cant explain but i love iht so much &nd youh. yeah id say id take a bullet for people but thats bullshit the only person i would die for besides my family is youh. youh make me lauqh; cry; scream; moan; pout; whine lmao &nd youh are what completes me. i dont know what the future holds &nd thats what scares me but as lonq as your by my side; everythinq will be okkay. i do my best to makew youh happy &nd ill do anythinq do please youh. youh are my first priority; youh come before myself. i cant qo a niqht without talkinq to youh or a minute without thinkinq about youh. the day that i qet to dream next to youh &nd see your face next to me in the morninq; will be the best day of my life but until then ima see youh every minute i can; because i cant live without youh. NEVER qive uhp on somethinq youh cant live without &nd thats why i havent qiven uhp on youh threw these years &nd baybee i can promise youh i NEVER will. <3 always &nd forever; infinity &nd beyond<3 .

&hearts;

words cant even beqin to explain how much youh mean to me. your the only one that has been there for me throuqh everythinq ,qood &nd bad . youh are the first one i tell anythinq too &nd youh are the last one i talk to every niqht before i qo to sleep . if i dnt talk to youh one niqht iht honestly feels like somethinq is missinq<3 i cnt even beqin to explain how much youh truely mean to me. i cnt picture my life without youh , i honestly cnt. i need youh ; i want youh ; i love youh<3. i try &nd try aqain to picture my life with someone else but i honestly cnt. somewhere between our stupid fiqhts , late niqht conversations &nd lauqhs we had toqether i have fallen completely in love. i jst havent had the quts to say anythinq to youh because im scared youh wnt feel the same. i knw youh honestly care about me &nd youh love me to with all your heart i jst still dnt knw why we jst arent toqether but i quess patience really is key &nd qood thinqs come to those who wait. ive been waitinq for 3 years now &nd lots of qood thinqs have come between me &nd youh. there isnt one fiqht , one minute or one hour that i wldnt take baqk that we had within those 3 years. youh are the only person i feel 1OO percent comfortable with &nd i honestly wldnt trade anythinq for the world. if i didnt have youh here to talk to or even here in my life period i have absolutly no idea what i would do. i tell youh over &nd over aqain i love youh but i dnt think youh really understand how much i do. i care about youh so much, sometimes even more then myself. i wouldnt trade anythinq in the world to have youh here by my side , here with me<3 . youh never fail to make me lauqh &nd youh always keep a smile on my face &nd thats one of the thinqs i love about youh* youh are the reason i look forward to the weekends &nd qoinq to school. your my motivation for everythinq. i really wish i could tell youh this but i dnt think your ready to hear this or maybe im jst not ready to tell youh. we made a promis that i wnt qet a boyfriend &nd youh wnt qet a qirlfriend, i already told youh that i dnt want anyone else &nd i truely mean that. i would never do anythinq to hurt youh in any way. youh are the reason my heart is beatinq &nd youh are the only one that has it. i love youh so much, i would die for youh. youh truely are my everythinq &nd youh always will be. i love youh so much from the bottom of my heart &nd no one will stop that … no one*